It was the second time I brought up the attempt to commit suicide in front of Christopher. He seemed to be startled by my determination to take myself out in times of emergencies for real.
Conscious of his concerns, my heart ached. I answered, “Chris, I’ll rather kill myself than living a life full of shame! Never will I allow others to take advantage of me!”
“If you don’t stop it, I’m going to be infuriated for real!” Christopher glared at me in the eyes and repeated himself with a stern look. As much as he tried to force a strong front, he was pretty much vulnerable.
“No matter what lies ahead of us, we’ll brace through everything together even if it’s the end of the world! I want you to promise me not to give up on life!”
I nodded and started weeping again when the incident that had occurred over the past few days flashed back in my mind.
That particular incident wouldn’t stop haunting me. As a result, I started wailing once again, “Christopher, I’m so scared!”
He was flustered as I burst into tears in front of him. As much as he wanted to hold me in between his arms, he couldn’t.
In the end, he asserted while caressing my head, “I’m so sorry for raising my volume against you. It’s my fault for not taking your safety into consideration. I should’ve kept an eye on you.”
I shook my head and stammered, “It’s not your fault! I’m just afraid of losing you as I don’t think I deserve you! You’re the only one I have, Christopher!”
“I will never leave you, okay?”
We spent the entire afternoon next to one another. I insisted on keeping Christopher company when the doctor dropped by for another routine check-up. The doctor even made fun of us and said we were a pair made in heaven.
Truth be told, as absurd as it might sound, I had always longed to be his wife. With that being said, it might just be another one of my unrealistic and ambitious goals.
I wouldn’t mind being just another woman of his as long as I had the chance to stay with him. Nothing could possibly drive us apart from one another.
The moment I saw the appalling wounds, including the one on his chest, I found out it wasn’t just another accident. It was a staged assassination meant to take him out. He almost had his lungs permanently damaged because of the shot.
“Miss, it’s time for another injection. Can you please come with me?” The nurse repeated himself since I went dead silent again.
I shook my hand and inched away from the nurse, returning to Christopher’s side.
Christopher showed me his hand and assured me everything would be fine, “It’s not a big deal. In fact, it’s not even going to hurt. See? I’m being pricked as well.”
I looked at the nurse in the eyes with my lips pursed. A few seconds later, I brought up a seemingly absurd request. “Can you please get a female nurse to tend to me? I don’t feel comfortable being around a male nurse.”
Having a hard time comprehending the rationale behind the request, he arched his brows in confusion as though he. In the end, he showed me his tag and announced, “I’m one of the best around here.”
Not even Zachary could approach me without startling me, let alone a stranger. I would feel tingling sensations all over my body the moment others came in touch with me. Thus, I shook my head and turned him down.
Christopher’s eyes glinted when he recalled something. He instructed the nurse, “Please get another female nurse over to tend to her.”
Once the nurse departed, he grasped my hand and caressed my cheek, asserting in a gentle tone, “It’s time for you to leave everything behind because it’s over.”
I was glad he could easily rule out the reason behind my seemingly absurd request. I assured him, “I’ll try my best to forget about it.”
We ended up lying next to one another in the ward. As odd as it might be, it was one of the few best moments I had in life. I couldn’t stop staring at Christopher in the eyes. After a short while, I yelled, “Christopher!”
He ran his fingers through my unkempt hair and asked in a hushed voice, “What?”
I repeated myself in a silly manner, “Christopher!”
“What is it?” he asked with a gentle beam.
“I just want to ensure you’re here with me.” Smiling, I carried on with the session for some time. I was glad he wasn’t against the idea of playing along with me.
The session was brought to a halt when someone knocked on the door. I thought Zachary was at the doorstep, but Darius showed up and took us by surprise.
Unable to think of something that could get me out of the situation, my eyes widened in disbelief as my limbs started getting stiff once again.
